Posted on July 6th, 2011
Today started poorly (any day that starts at 5:30 with Pea screaming isn’t ideal), but it’s slowly turning around. Pea and I went out on a neighborhood rambled that involved seeing a very young baby duckling (holy crap, those things can swim fast!) and its mom and a violet-green swallow, then we had coffee and visited a favorite boutique. At home, our moods were good, we had lunch, we spent time reading on the roof, and when it got too windy we came downstairs. Right now she’s watching Angelina Ballerina (gag) and I’m trying to stay awake. It’s a hot day for Portlandia, but we’re staying cool (73 or so) in the loft.
But taking stock of the big picture, I have a lot to be grateful for. I’m focusing on those things. First and foremost and almost without saying, that’s M and Pea.
Also, I have a new hobby/project in the works that all the pieces are falling into place for and my writing is going well. (Dear would-be betas that I have politely blown off for the last year? I’m almost ready for you. Honest.)
Sure, I’m numb about my family situation. If there’s anything I’ve gotten good at over the years, it’s being numb instead of emotionally overinvested in a painful situation. Coping? This girl copes. I’m busy, caffeinated, and preoccupied. I have a decent supply of chocolate and a lifetime of dirty laundry to consider airing.
Yep. I’m content.