Bitter End
My attitude sucks.
Maybe it’s because school starts tomorrow.
Maybe it’s because I have one author that I thought would be gone, gone, gone because of egregiously bad behavior, and yet she’s still on my roster because the powers that be don’t want to reward her by letting her go. (Never mind that it punishes me.)
Maybe it’s the moon.
Maybe it’s because OMG no, I don’t want to talk about My Little Ponies.
Maybe it’s because while I have real and achievable goals for the next six months, they all involve a lot of work and I’m tired.
Maybe it’s because I haven’t gotten a decent night’s sleep in weeks.
Maybe it’s because my damned jaw keeps popping out of joint and it hurts like a SOB.
Maybe it’s because I’m sick of being poor and if I hear anything else about people’s wonderful vacations and purchases and other things I will start screaming.
I don’t know.
My attitude sucks.
Really sucks.
This is the bitter end of my rope.
I’m going to take a deep breath and hope that the start of school is going to change everything, that the magic of fall will make everything move into place, and that things will be better in the morning.
They have to be, right?
12 Responses to “Bitter End”
I’m sorry things aren’t going so well. Take a deep breath and maybe even scream into a pillow a few times. :-/ I’ll be sending you some good thoughts!
Thanks! I think tonight is definitely a margarita night.
I think a margarita (or 5) will definitely help to set things right!
Yuck. If it’s any consolation, you have company in your boat. I’m trying to keep my head above water and stay positive…and it’s so so so hard, but if I get down, I’m pretty sure our boat will sink. I’ll send you positive thoughts if you do the same for me!
Kindergarten can’t help but help. Time to yourself, for free…. your time is just going to open up. You will be marvelously productive and Peach will be tired, tired, tired when she gets home. These are my wishes for you.
OK, Jennifer, you have a deal. I had a minor breakdown and cried today, and tomorrow it’s your turn. We’ll both be right as rain by Friday, right?
Anna: I so, so hope so!
Oh I know exactly how you feel. Sometimes I think just getting a good night’s sleep make all the difference in the world. And if that doesn’t work, there is always chocolate.
I think, first, you get chocolate and wine; then, you get hugs.
I mostly feel like this all the time! But I’m also a total glass-half-empty kind of person.
It’s ok to be pissed and frustrated and irate, and that’s not the same as having a bad attitude. And yeah, some of our Twitter comrades (I’m thinking of one in particular) have a bad habit of being a little… overzealous sharing their big ticket purchases. It’s not just you who finds it irritating.
My best thought on the subject is – it’s healthy to go ahead and be pissed off when you need to be, and you don’t owe anyone an apology for that.
I had a minor meltdown the afternoon after I wrote the post. And…it helped. Maybe a tantrum is good for the soul.
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